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I have very soft pubic hair. I know what you’re thinking, some people hit the jackpot, but I wasn’t born with the genetic makeup to assure I’d one day have a silky bush.  My secret? I started using Fur Oil.

Fur Oil is a conditioning beauty oil explicitly designed for, well, pubes. Developed by sisters Emily and Laura Schubert, along with co-founder Lillian Tung, the oil promises to minimize ingrowns and soften hairs. Fur products, which include a Stubble Cream, a Silk Scrub and an Ingrown Concentrate, in addition to their signature oil are 100 percent natural, vegan, and cruelty-free.  

My Fur Oil arrives quickly and with little fanfare. I was expecting a grander presentation, but it simply comes wrapped tightly in bubble wrap in a small cardboard box, packed along with a postcard, which reads: Our brand was founded by women who believe in straight-forward, beautiful care for every part of the body for every body. Fur products are formulated directly with dermatologists and gynecologists to make sure they are safe and effective for everyone.

Unboxing the tiny round tincture I’m pleased that if nothing else, the bottle will look cool on my bathroom vanity. And speaking of vanity, I want shinier pubes so I shower right away. I shave my bikini line as normal, then apply the oil while my skin is still slightly damp. Fur Oil is best applied on clean skin and should be used every day as part of your beauty regimen for best results. The oil gives off a fresh, spa-like smell with hints of tea tree oil, lavender, and lemon that dissipates quickly. At first, I worry that the mintiness of the tea tree may burn (If you’ve ever had the unfortunate experience of touching your junk after handling hot sauce or toothpaste, you know what I mean.). I am happy to report that this is not the case; the oil feels light and gives me zero unwanted tingles.

The ingredient list is entirely natural and made from a mix of nine oils. Fur’s website identified the four “key ingredients” as Grape Seed Oil, Jojoba Oil, Clary Sage Oil, and Tea Tree Oil. The four powerhouse ingredients absorb quickly, condition skin, soothe redness and irritation with natural antibacterials, and help prevent ingrowns with their antimicrobial properties.

After one use, my pubic hair feels soft and has a sheen to it.  It’s not like my pubic hair looked particularly dull in the past. (Today in: Sentences I’d never thought I’d write.) But after using Fur, it has a healthy shimmer underneath my harsh bathroom light. I’m so happy with this I decided to try it on my eyebrows too. Fur’s website says that the oil is “for everywhere hair meets skin” so I feel safe in putting the oil close to my eyes (which is only right, considering I just layered it on my genitals). My eyebrows look shiny and perfectly undone without being greasy. In short, I love the effect.

After telling him he has to answer my questions for the sake of honest journalism, my partner confirms that yes, my eyebrows look “good” and that my pubes feel soft.

I’ve used Fur on my pubic hair, eyebrows, and the ends of my hair every day since. My bikini line is staying smoother for longer and my split ends look shiny and sealed.

The only downside is the cost. I have lived a (relatively) long life with product-free pubes and it seems like a big leap to start spending $28 dollars for a two-week 14 milliliter supply. Fur also offers a larger 76-milliliter bottle for $46 that is said to last 6 months and is a much smarter buy.

But will I order Fur Oil again? Furk yea.

Doctors Are Using Ketamine to Alter Our Sense of Time and Self

CALL OUT: Ketamine has been getting a lot of buzz recently. In March of 2019, the FDA approved Johnson & Johnson’s nasal spray, Spravato, for treatment-resistant depression. Spravato is technically esketamine, which is, molecularly-speaking, almost identical to Ketamine but three times as potent and can be given at a lower dose.

Maybe you know it as a horse or a cat anesthetic, or maybe you’ve heard of a K-hole. You could have also read the absolutely amazing Twitter thread where Irish writer Seamus O’Reilly slowly tells the story of doing Ketamine shortly before realizing he was scheduled to work, and it was the night the President of Ireland, Mary McAleese, was touring the venue.

Of the experience he writes, “By now, having been alone with my thoughts for the entire Cretaceous period, I am no longer mildly weird but deeply, extravagantly deranged. As the President of Ireland walks in, with my boss’s boss’s boss’s boss, my first impulse is to greet them like I own the place. It would be rude, surely, to not acknowledge their presence? Out of order even. Best thing to do would obviously be to say, ‘ello guys.’, like it’s my home and I live there, in this big white room, where I stand in the corner, alone, holding a tray of drinks, like you do at home.”

Though this seems, and is, a ridiculous anecdote, it does speak to Ketamine’s ability to completely alter one’s sense of time and self. As it turns out, it’s much more than a party and veterinary drug. It was approved as an anesthetic by the FDA in 1970. Since Ketamine does not slow breathing or stunt the gag reflex, it’s often considered a safer option than other anesthetics. The World Health Organization has consistently listed Ketamine as one of its “essential medicines” and it was widely used during the Vietnam War to immediately quell the pain of wounded soldiers.

I spent a late April afternoon speaking with Angela Ward BSN, RNC-Ob/EFM, CPTR and Clinic Nurse Lead at the Advanced Integrative Medical Science (AIMS) Institute in Seattle to get a professional opinion and insight into how Ketamine is used to help treat depression. “A lot of the things we’re seeing in the world, you may have heard them called ‘diseases of despair.’ There’s an epidemic right now of middle aged men suiciding,” Wards tells me. “People are really struggling, and a huge part of it is that we’re so disconnected. That’s why I was like, ‘let’s meet in person!’”

Ward takes me on a brief tour of the AIMS institute, which looks more like an expansive yet cozy mid-century modern home than a clinic. A delicate chandelier made from paper flowers casts a shadow above a framed picture of a dandelion. The shadow and the image combined make it look like dandelion petals are blowing across the white wall.“I could see myself getting high here,” I think, sinking further into the West Elm. Maybe I’m missing the point.

“Wine?” Ward asks, and I agree wholeheartedly. We take a short walk through the Eastlake neighborhood of Seattle to a quiet restaurant overlooking the water. Ward comes from a medical background in labor and delivery, so it’s not without a deep medical knowledge that she tells me, “It’s really fucking hard to do shit by yourself.” I laugh, then sensing, I think, that I may write this statement off as light humor, she adds, “There is something about being energetically in each other’s field, and able to breathe together, and I know that sounds hippie and woo-woo, but that’s how we’re wired.” With that, we toast our juice glasses filled with wine.

Ward continues by sharing with me a bit about her history, which includes the loss of her infant daughter. “I had a psychedelic experience within the safe and sacred container of a plant-medicine ceremony that was profoundly healing in response to the grief from losing my infant daughter.”

It was after this experience, she realized she wished to share this knowledge and experience with other people. “One of the things that ketamine does is it allows people to have an experience where they’re able to step away a bit from an emotional trigger. Let’s say any time you think about a particular person you immediately are angry. [Ketamine] takes it from this immediate experience and then puts it over here, like a concept. It gives you some space to experience something as a concept without the emotional flair.”

Over the course of our conversation, I begin to notice that when speaking about Ketamine, Ward often mentions that it creates space: space to separate the mind from what it perceives to be true (I will never be happy, for example), space between impulse and action, space between periods of suffering where pain may still be present but the sensation can change, and if it can change it opens the mind to the possibility that it may not be forever. Ward put it this way, “It might not be this wall that’s crushing you for all eternity.”

Ward continued by explaining how some people think the downfall of Ketamine is that it’s not a one-stop shop. Typically people do not go on a Ketamine journey and then never experience depression again.“We’re following the MAPS ( MDMA-assisted Psychotherapy) for PTSD model which says we’re creating the conditions for healing, and we’re awakening your eternal healing wisdom.” She explains to me an analogy first used by Michael Mithoefer of MAPS. ”If you were out riding your bike and you fell on some gravel and you had a cut on your leg, you’d go to the hospital, they clean up the wound, clean out the gravel and stitch the edges together, but they wouldn’t actually make your skin grow back together. Your body knows how to do that if you create the conditions for healing.” Ward continues, “[By using Ketamine] we create the conditions for healing the mind and I’ll say spirit, supporting you in making meaning of what’s happening to you.”

What To Expect

Patients are medically-cleared by their provider for treatment, then a patient meets with Ward or another member of the AIMS team and their medical provider to talk about what to expect. The Ketamine treatment itself consists of three sessions, called deep dives, where a patient is injected with the substance; the dosing is weight-based and typically works out to 1.6 milligrams per kilogram. A bit after the injection, people typically get a wobbly feeling, a feeling of floating not unlike the sensation of having the spins when you’re drunk. Once that feeling takes over, they’re ready to “launch.”

During post-launch behavior, “75 percent of people are very still,” Ward explains, “Some people will report to me what they’re feeling and then they’ll stop talking and then have an outburst of, ‘Wow,’ or ‘Amazing,’ or ‘I’m scared.’ Other people will move their hands, almost like pulling energy blocks off their bodies, big smiles, or sometimes they will cry these big releases. Some people are wild cats. Ketamine makes them move like crazy. They’re working some energetic thing out. [Their] eternal healing wisdom knows you need to undulate your arm this way.”

People on Ketamine lose their ability to trace thoughts, which means the last word that was said is often immediately forgotten. For some people this can be confusing, unsettling, scary even. “This is a huge part of the ego trying to be there,” Ward explains. “That’s okay. This is about trying to soften the ego so it can come back online in a way that’s healthier.”

Ward sits with patients on their deep-dive journey, what many would consider the “tripping” part of the process, which lasts 50-60 minutes. After this portion of the therapy, Ward steps out and the provider steps in, and they begin talk therapy. “We’re billing insurance which is unheard of in the rest of the work around Ketamine.

Following both portions of the therapy, patient care continues, “After about two hours and 15 minutes, the patient usually has to pee. We help them get to the bathroom. They usually keep their sunglasses on or wear an eye mask because Ketamine makes things bright, then they’ll have a snack or some tea, and that helps people come back into their body. We don’t let people drive home.”

I later talked to someone who preferred to remain anonymous that had recently undergone their first Ketamine deep dive at AIMS. I asked if anything about the experience had surprised her, “I think I was pretty prepared, I’ve taken hallucinogens recreationally. The weird thing was closing your eyes and tripping inside of your mind rather than interacting with the world, it’s much more of a journey. It took me a couple days to process. Nothing really popped up as a life-changing moment. It all just felt like a dream.”

This patient seems to have a genuine faith that more will be revealed in the two journeys to come, that the confusion she experienced initially will ultimately lead to an understanding, or at the very least, her experience could help other people experiencing the same things. Ward echoes a similar sentiment, explaining that creating a space of intentional healing with a focus on personal traumas awakens intuitive parts of ourselves. This space also shows others that healing is possible and that a meaningful life is attainable. “That helps people live. That helps people not kill themselves,” Ward emphasized.

The apothecary is back. With a focus on natural remedies and local botanicals, apothecaries are popping up everywhere and are using plant-based alternatives to fix everything from skin woes — to headaches — to low libidos.

“If you dig deep enough into your own lineage, there’s plant medicine everywhere,” Max Turks, founder of Roots & Crowns Apothecary in Portland, Ore., says. “It’s part of the fabric of being human. It’s only in the past 100 years that it’s gone behind a veil because of the industrial revolution and the pharmaceutical industry.”

Apothecaries are trendy right now, like many things that resurface after a long absence. But the three apothecaries I interviewed for this story, Roots & Crowns, Blendily, and Sabia, transcend trend. Each store is at once modern and ancient, like the beautiful vintage rugs that hang from the walls of Roots & Crowns where I am spending this sunny March morning chatting with Max.

Max wears a black sweater and layered necklaces, one which reads “Aquarius” in delicate gold script, and is standing behind a polished stone counter. I feel calmer just being in her presence.

What apothecaries used to be is the medicine places of the town. What people don’t realize,” she says, “or maybe they do, is that pharmacies are literally the modern apothecaries. Unfortunately, it’s so far removed from what it used to be, but apothecary is medicine.

Blendily

The day before I had a phone call with Ivy Chaung, founder of Blendily, a skincare kitchen offering “all-natural skincare, bath and body care, and herbal remedies handcrafted with fresh, organic, and wild ingredients.”

In 2012 it was uncovered that Johnson & Johnson had the formaldehyde-releasing chemicals quaternium-15 and DMDM hydantoin in their baby products; Ivy had an infant daughter at the time. This was the news that prompted Ivy to pivot career paths, formalizing her education in aromatherapy and natural product formulation, and becoming a licensed esthetician. “I was pretty alarmed because [my daughter’s] first bath in the hospital just minutes out of the womb was with this baby wash. It’s an immensely popular product, even now,” she says.

I think what was most upsetting was that formaldehyde wasn’t listed in the formulation itself. I had a lightbulb moment. This can’t be how it used to be. I realized everything you[use to] groom yourself can be handmade, the ingredients can be botanical-based and understandable.

Sabia Apothecary

Not all modern apothecaries make their own products on-premise. Sabia Apothecary curates an inventory of high-quality products, many of which utilize local ingredients including myrrh and rose petals in the Royal Rose Honey Mask, and Inventive Organics Environmental Cleanser, made using ginger, grapefruit, and tea tree oil.

Sabia Apothecary began as a “sleepy neighborhood herb and essential oil shop” in the Hyde Park neighborhood of Austin in 1994, Katie Day of Sabia Apothecary tells me. “A husband and wife team had a passion for natural healing and body care that they manifested in the brick and mortar Sabia.” They changed ownership in 2004, and have grown to include various skin, hair, and body care brands as well as ingestible wellness potions and a full spa service menu.

I ask Katie what she sees as the role of the modern apothecary and she explains impassioned, “I think there’s something that just feels good about healing your body with plants and nutritional foods if it’s available to you. Our bodies respond readily and synergistically with botanical formulations as we share DNA with plants and are quite receptive to the healing powers of ancient herbs and botanical ingredients. [There is] heaps of this sort of information at our fingertips.”

It seems like every time you turn an Instagram corner, there’s another influencer touting a new natural product that will change your life, or at least your skin. It can be overwhelming. “This is where the modern-day apothecary can step in and provide guidance,” Katie says. “At Sabia, we are not exclusively one way or the other. Most everything we carry is ‘natural’, but there is definitely a wide range to satisfy a broad spectrum of customers.”

Modern apothecaries are a place to come for guidance and genuine connection. Sabia offers “an ambient space where one can come to relax, peruse a curated selection of healthful products, and leave with a bit of new knowledge on how to self-care.”

Natural vs. Organic

I ask Katie, Ivy, and Max to help me unpack the differences between the word “natural” and “organic” and they tell me almost the exact same thing; those words really have no widely agreed upon meaning.

“There is a common misconception that has arisen along with the interest in ancient remedies and natural products; [some people think] if something isn’t 100 percent naturally derived then it must be bad,” Katie explains. “If you want to add dermatologist-developed retinol to your regimen, then by all means! We have the options and offer you educated guidance so you get to decide.”

“I think organic can be a buzzword,” Max says. “Things can be organically grown or cultivated even if they are not certified organic. I’m going to be working with a hemp farmer who may or may not eventually get certified in organic growth, but they are growing organically which just means that they avoid the majority of pesticides, and they work to make sure that the soil’s not depleted.”

Similarly, other brands may be “natural” in the sense that they are free of synthetics, dyes, parabens, fragrances, and other ingredients, but might not have the Ecocert or Certified Organic stamp on the label. Katie says, “we still love them anyway, as this detail does not compromise the integrity of the products we have carefully selected to carry here. We carry several brands from overseas that do not have the same FDA organic standards as American brands but still utilize organically grown ingredients, thus are organic.”

“Natural is fluff word,” Ivy says with a laugh. “It sounds nicer than chemical-free which is misleading in that there are chemical constituents in natural products.” Ivy tells me, to my surprise, that in the cosmetics industry there’s little to no regulation on these words. In the U.S., regulations on the word organic are only for food, so if you see it on a cosmetics label it means some of the ingredients (olive oil, for example) have been through the food regulation process.

I ask Max what can be done by the average consumer who is seeking safer alternatives to everyday items. “The best thing you can do when it comes to ingredients is have a relationship with the source and be able to trust it,” she says.

Ivy tells me that many of her customers come into the shop saying they have sensitive skin, “which is interesting because sensitive skin is really skin that is having a reaction. When you purchase skincare products there are so many ingredients you don’t know what you’re reacting to.” She tries to limit all of Blendily’s products to 10 ingredients or fewer.

Max advocates a similar simplicity in her products. “If you look at the average person’s bathroom vanity or closet it’s full of shit that they don’t even touch. People are amazed when I say you can use this facial serum as a cleanser, moisturizer, even an exfoliant. There is no reason why you need to have a $700 beauty regime.”

Magic

The love Ivy, Max, and Katie all show for plants is a love I envy in its purity and its ability to occupy both the scientific and the mystical.

Ivy describes to me one of the facial oil serums she produces seasonally called Ruby Skies. It’s made by infusing St. John’s Wort into Sunflower Oil to form a blazing poppy red color. “I’m pretty enamored with that product because it gives off a such a beautiful hue. The flower is yellow and if you were to infuse the flower when it’s dry, it wouldn’t give off that color,” she says. “It feels like magic.”

And then the next day, Max is telling me about violets.

I can’t express the joy that I feel when I get to see the first violet of the year. I’m amazed that we get this year after year, it just comes back like a resurgence.” She says. “Violet medicine is often told to be a creative expression. It can be helpful for people who are shy and introverted if they want to open up. I think of how that is such a metaphor for what violets do at the end of a dark quiet season.

“What lessons can you observe from plants?” Max wonders, more to the collective you or perhaps to herself than to me. “These things that seem little but they’re not little and they’re everywhere if you notice them.” She pauses, takes a bite of the breakfast cookie she’s been nibbling on all morning.

“That’s magic to me.”

 

In my local Portland coffee shop recently, the barista asked if I wanted to add a few drops of CBD to my Americano. He spoke in the same flat affect usually reserved for “Room for cream?” Always curious to try anything that promises to make me feel “different,” I ponied up the extra three bucks bringing my total to 2.5 times its normal price.

The CBD itself was tasteless and left a light oily film on the top of my coffee, which was not unpleasant (it reminded me of the oily drops on the surface of hot chocolate sold at ice skating rinks). What followed was one of the most clear-headed and productive writing days I’ve had in months.

For the uninitiated, CBD (Cannabidiol) is one of over 100 chemical compounds which comprise the marijuana plant. The compound most commonly associated with marijuana is THC (Tetrahydrocannabinol) and THC is what gets people high. Because CBD won’t get you stoned, it’s an intriguing option for anyone who is seeking relief from a myriad of symptoms but is uninterested in a lofty conversation about how the fuck tunnels are actually built…man.

I recognize that I am particularly susceptible to psychosomatic effects: I once drank salad dressing mixed with ketchup and thought I was drunk. To make sure the effects I was feeling from the CBD coffee were not in my head, in the figurative sense, I corroborated my experience with other CBD coffee enthusiasts, and spoke with Dr. Benjamin Caplan and Brooke Alpert, RD and licensed holistic cannabis practitioner, who is also New York City-based author of “The Sugar Detox.”

Generally speaking, for most people taking CBD, it seems to have a calming effect,” Caplan founder of the CED Foundation says, “It doesn’t seem to counteract other effects of caffeine.

Caplan, explained further, “there is literature supporting CBD’s action as a strong anti-inflammatory agent; it can help inhibit some of the major cascades of inflammatory cells, essentially muting components of the body’s alarm system. There is also evidence that, for some patients, CBD can reduce seizures, quell pain from arthritis and muscle spasm, reduce nausea, quiet nerve pains, and help lower anxiety. With consistent use and informed consumption, [CBD] has effect as an antineoplastic agent, supporting a cell’s ability to detect faulty or cancerous activity, and promote its self-destruction.”

Alpert says, “in my practice and in the research, 10 milligrams tends to be the sweet spot for most people to feel a positive effect from CBD.”

In addition to speaking with Caplan and Alpert, I wanted to glean multiple experiences from the general public to weigh in on the effectiveness of CBD in our daily lives — since you know, I have the ability to cop a buzz from salad dressing.

Before discovering the CBD coffee fusion, Emma Stapp had cut coffee entirely, feeling that it worsened her anxiety. “I truly love the taste and the ritual of [coffee], and though I’d try anything to ‘cure’ my angst, abstaining from coffee also didn’t seem like the forever solution. Adding CBD to my coffee seems to not only take the edge off my caffeine jitters and allow me to keep coffee in my life, but it also set the stage for a calmer day ahead.” She now uses CBD to combat everything from crippling panic attacks to first date jitters.

Stapp has been in therapy for over 14 years and has tried a variety of prescription medications, acupuncture, massage, Kava, meditation, yoga, running, mindfulness techniques, and dietary changes to manage her anxiety. CBD is now her preferred method for anxiety relief thanks to her newly discovered coffee and CBD ritual each morning.

“Both CBD and caffeine are known to interact with our natural cannabinoid system, boosting certain aspects, such as attention and focus, while, subduing other neurotransmitter systems,” Caplan tells me.  “Some animal data has shown us that cannabinoids, including CBD can interact with animal memory tasks. When caffeine has been studied alongside CBD, it has been shown to have a protective effect on memory.”

John*, a male in his 30s, says CBD in his morning cup of coffee makes his work stress more manageable. He drinks a CBD coffee and almost immediately experiences a calming effect. He notices he sweats less on his commute, which is a symptom of his easing anxiety.

Elena* found CBD coffee at a coffee shop in the West Village of New York City, and now brews her own at home each morning before heading to work. She notices a clearer head at the office, sustained energy, and an easier time focusing on complex tasks.

“I recently went off anxiety medicine I’ve been on since I was 12,” Elena told me.  

CBD has been a big part of that transition. It makes a noticeable difference for me and I’m much more comfortable taking it than a pharmaceutical that has all kinds of side effects.

Realizing that my brain loves the way I feel from CBD coffee but my wallet does not, I went online and purchased the exact same unflavored CBD tincture that my coffee shop uses (the brand is Gron) for $50. Now I add it to my coffee at home whenever I remember, which is seldom, because my brain doesn’t function well without coffee. A real catch-22. At least the bottle looks cool on my counter.